Having come through the Jesus tradition, I remember the day when Christians spoke poorly about the band U2 and their song “I still haven’t found what I’m looking for.” They adamantly believed that if they only found Jesus, they wouldn’t sing this song. After all, once you find Jesus, there’s nothing else to look for, right?!
Take a minute or two to watch this video of U2 collaborating on this tune with a gospel choir in Harlem. The irony is rich in hearing the soulful sounds of this ‘Christian’ choir singing these lyrics of theology:
“I believe in the Kingdom come
Then all the colours will bleed into one . . .
You broke the bonds
And you loosened the chains
Carried the cross of my shame
You know I believe it”
And then, even after this bold statement of belief in what one might say is the fullness of Christ, comes the troubling line:
“I still haven’t found what I’m looking for”
But why is this troubling?
It’s dishonest to say that even those with a firm conviction of faith don’t experience, at least occasionally, a ‘Cosmic Ache’, as my good friend Amy Au recently wrote about.
I don’t think Jesus followers really listened to this song, because if they did they wouldn’t have judged U2. Finding Jesus or running after him won’t satisfy your hunger or soul’s desire. Unless of course there’s a mutual meeting place in which he also finds you.
In my own experience, those moments when Jesus finds me, feels radically different than my pursuit of finding him.
I believe there’s no pressure to find God.
He’ll find you, if you’re willing to be found.
And however it happens, it’ll far surpass what you think you need to believe or even who it is you expect the truth to look like.